The Sky Angel's Blog

The past month has been a whirlwind with the latest arrival to our family … my great nephew, Tyler ~~~ and me trying to find my way around the streets of Seattle again.  It is so bizarre having the feeling of “everything is comfortable” to “everything is new” all in the same breath.  Before I go any further, I just need to say that “I LOVE LIVING IN THE PACIFIC NORTHWEST AGAIN”!!!

Aside from feeling like a complete dork, because I am having to learn how to drive a stick shift car on the hills after living in FLAT places the past 19 years, I find I am saying to myself “I am not lost, but I am definitely not where I want to be”.  There have been so many times I have texted friends asking for directions from one place to another, and I am so thankful they never seem to get impatient with me.  The other day I was on my way to my first accupuncture appointment, and I think it was the first time I realized there is no longer a KingDome here.  Instead there are two stadiums side by side.  Isn’t that over kill???  🙂

Aside from the obvious reasons of being closer to my family and friends, I have so many other reasons I am thankful to be back in the Pacific Northwest … one of which includes the medical profession.  My frustration level has been through the roof with my health the past six months.  It seems crazy to me that I have been out of work for this long, and that I have had NO RELIEF from the pain in and on my head.  There has not been a day or night that has gone by in 180 days, where I have not felt like the weight of an elephant is lodged there.  Along with that, came a plethora of doctors, and diagnosis.  However, to date, I still don’t feel I have a proper diagnosis … and I simply got fed up with the medications being prescribed.

SO, I found a chiropractor who is trying to help me figure out exactly what is wrong.  He referred me to an internal medicine doctor, in hopes that doctor could become my new Primary Care Physician (for me, the jury is still out on that).  However, this doctor listened to me … and put me on a detoxification diet this past week … AND took me off ALL of my meds.  YIPPEE!!!   …. honestly, I have been in so much pain and yet I never felt as though the pills were making a tremendous difference.  I am happy to say that my fears of becoming addicted to hydrocodone or anything else were all for not.  Going off the medications has been easy, coping with the pain has not.  It is rare to find a doctor who doesn’t want to pump me full of drugs … and I truly am seeking one who will help me get to the root cause, not treat the symptoms.

The best part about detoxifying is that I feel like I have control over my own body again.  NOTHING is more important to me than me keeping my peace of mind that I am not going to have to live with this pain the rest of my life.  NOTHING is more important to me than getting well and getting my life back.  You see, I feel there is so much to be done in the world.  There are orphaned children, abused animals, catastrophic events that require humanity coming together as one, troops that need to know they are remembered, and so much more …. I need to be Making A Difference on the ground, and in the sky .. it is in my blood.  But I also came to understand THE VERY HARD WAY, that this is a time of balance for me.  Where I had to learn I could not take on the world … and I had to teach others how to live their passions too.  🙂

But for now, I guess I have to be content with knowing I am in God’s hands.  That means He knows how much I yearn to be WELL …. and how many toxins really are in my body.  Ironically He knows the people who were also toxic to my well being and removed them.  The key is for me not to allow anyone or anything to creep back into my “space” or infiltrate my soul so that I have to be like “this” one second longer than necessary.  😉  HE knows what will bring me healing, and has a plan.  I just wish right now, in the middle of yet another night when I cannot sleep because of the pain … that He would give me a little insight.  In all of my frustration with feeling things are beyond my control …. I am thankful for that abilty to know things are right, and perfect, and exactly the way they are supposed to be.  And when the time comes … I will be back in the skies and doing the job I love the most.

Until then, I sure could use a prayer if you can spare one.

Thanks so much …

Your Sky Angel

Robin

 

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